It’s a lay in bed all day and eat chocolate when I’m hungry kind of day. I feel like my heart is 10,000 feet underground. I’m trying to give myself permission to be in the space that I am, when there are a million things around me demanding attention. The life of a melancholy… How does the rest of the world live with us? My husband, so sweetly, sang ‘You Are My Sunshine” to me before getting out of bed, knowing I was going to have one of those days.
Misty Mawn’s Open Studio class began a few days ago, and I’m loving every second. So grateful to my family who bought me a spot in the class for me birthday.
Charcoal and White Pastel Only
Yesterday we had some writing assignments and I chose to make a video to add voice (or in this case, a whisper) and aesthetics to my heptastich poem (a poem with seven lines):
I must understand myself. I must understand the world.
My basic fear is that of being defective. I’m missing something. Others have it.
Overwhelmed by my emotion, I indulge in melancholy.
Feeling the sadness of the world, I retreat within.
The world is invasive, so confusing. I need privacy to think.
I seek integrity and moral courage.
I seek to go home, from whence I came into being.
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Don’t you just love charcoal? Softness and harshness in one stroke- instant drama. Your portrait and your poem are both very moving!
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angela Reply:
January 11th, 2012 at 1:05 PM
@julie,
I do! Thank you, Julie <3
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Angela, this is a very powerful post. You are such a talented artist and poet. Thank you for sharing!
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angela Reply:
January 11th, 2012 at 5:09 PM
@Jamie Burch,
Wow, thank you, Jamie <3 It's amazing when we allow ourselves to be so vulnerable how others can connect to us.
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Beautiful video..beautiful poem…also very taken with your charcoal. In the midst of early morning craziness you have made me stop…thank you!
Julie
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angela Reply:
January 12th, 2012 at 9:12 AM
Thank you, Julie! One day I’ll expand into color, like you. Your paintings are beautiful! Thanks for stopping by!
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Wonderful and powerful -- thank you for being so vulnerable. You related beautifully what I have so often felt.
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angela Reply:
January 15th, 2012 at 8:57 AM
@Kathleen Conard, Kathleen, that is always the amazing and rewarding thing about sharing our inner world -- when other people connect with it and then we don’t feel so alone.
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