The Wanderer

Feeling Shy…

November 2, 2010
Field

FieldOver the last few days I’ve gathered all these poems I’ve written over the years, ones specifically I thought I would post to the blog over time.  Today seemed like the perfect day to whip one of those out to post, as I’ve got a lot on my plate and don’t have much time to write.  Well, I just experienced myself getting really shy.

As I’ve been going through them and putting them in a separate folder for the blog, I was sure to ask myself, are you sure you are ready to share this with the world? Mostly, the answer was yes.  But now that I’m here, right now, I can’t muster up the courage.   Not for a single one.

My heart has been bursting at the seems with creative inspiration.  So much so that I can’t even get to sleep these days before 2am.  Some nights it’s been 4am.  I’m walking around like a zombie during the days.  But always thinking, what should I create? I’m eating, living, breathing, and dreaming inspiration.  Drenching my head and heart with other creative bloggers.  Thankful for bloggers like Boho Girl and Kelly Rae who have chronicled their very vulnerable thoughts and journeys to creative freedom and artistic living.

I was reading Kelly Rae’s chronicles last night.  In 2006 she was talking about her experience at Art Fest and how that changed everything for her in terms of her commitment to her art.  It was only last week that I stumbled on Art Fest 2011 and experienced my heart’s cry to be there.  It’s fantastic to feel like I have these soul sisters holding my hand through this journey by allowing me to peek into theirs.  It’s also fantastic to see Kelly Rae’s ‘humble beginnings’, as she calls them, and know that there is room for progress and perfecting of our crafts.

I’m trying to expose myself to as many different crafts and creative people as time will allow for, to see where my heart gravitates to most.  I’ve joined a few flickr groups with fun contests – self-portraiture, hipstamatic (iPhone photo app), creative.  I’m following blogs: writers, photographers, knitters, and mixed media artists.  I love this culture – this life of artistic freedom.

My spirit feels alive again.

Spirit Alive

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5 Comments

  • Reply Collette November 3, 2010 at 12:14 AM

    hi Angela!

    Thanks so much for taking the time to comment on my blog. Comments are so valued and we all want to connect with others.
    You can sew my dear friend. Get a machine and start simple. I’m no advanced sewer, trust me!
    I really like your site. It’s nice and easy to see you are a lady with some serious creativity going on. Love that!
    I was interested to read about the ‘mercury’ issues and fillings. Ugh! I am going to come back and read all your posts and search a bit of the information. I want to rid of the last few of those nasty fillings.

    xo Collette

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  • Reply rawqueen November 3, 2010 at 9:01 AM

    Yes angela nice post. Good for you for being so open about your creative energy. This will help other folks to open up too. Publish your poems girl. Pick the one that makes your heart leap the most and share some (even a few words) small part of it with us. Pleeeease. I know how you feel though. I get all shaky and read when I share my mixed media stuff on my blog. For some reason it makes me feel so naked and exposed. Here is a link to one of the first mixed media pieces I shared on line.
    http://somethingblu.wordpress.com/2010/02/16/aya/
    It really freaked me out to post at first. I think because it was such a raw subject and close to my heart and home. I wish you the best on your creative road to freedom!

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  • Reply Sam November 3, 2010 at 9:05 AM

    I’ve been feeling the same way lately. School is keeping me super busy but all I can possibly think is “what can i make today??!” It’s crazy, I just have this NEED to make things all the time. I, too, find myself half awake and dreaming of all sorts of creative projects into the wee hours of the morning (and i definitely understand the zombie phase!)… good luck with your art. You have the heart; you can do it.

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  • Reply angela November 3, 2010 at 12:07 PM

    Thank you for your encouragement, ladies :-) It’s great to be a part of such a supportive community.

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  • Reply shannon November 4, 2010 at 1:37 PM

    this is a beautiful post. you may be feeling shy, and yet, you have the courage to share your vulnerability here and THAT is a beautiful thing. i, too, have gone through all kinds of moments like this on my journey of self-discovery and expression. in fact, it’s why i created my e-course “Inside Out” because i know we can all relate to wanting to live fuller, deeper, freer lives -- but needing the care and support of others to get there.

    thanks for stopping by my blog recently. happy we’ve connected. xoxo

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